J.E. Sawyer said:
Personally, I had to accept that a game I worked on for two and a half years, that I put more creative energy into than anything else in my life, was indefinitely shelved. And I had to accept the responsibility of taking over the lead design position on Van Buren after Chris Avellone, who has far more respect among developers and fans, left the company. It's hard, but obviously, if I didn't think the trade-off was worth it, I wouldn't still be around.
I'm not a great designer, but I try, and this is what I've wanted to work on since 1999.